This is me Chapter 5

I havent writtern in a year.. But theres lots to tell, i feel alone like no one is there for me... But there are people,im not going to cut and commit suicide im just going to live a different lifestyle. Im going to try being emo even though i were a school uniform ill still be expressing myself more. well over this summer i planned it to be the best summer ever.. and it was.. at first then everythibng turned around.. the best boyfriend ive ever had of 2 months cheated on me and broke up with me i cried and cried and cried.. i treated him badly but it was getting better so i didnt get it i was so confused.im still not over it. no one is there for me so i rely on music that i like, whenever im done i listen to music not pop or any of that but rock bands stuff to get my mind off of things.. every now and then i still cry about it but ill slowly get over him.. i feel as if writing in a blog im telling someone even though i hope no one reads it.. This is me now i may confuse you but im here to express..not impress.

Decision Chapter4

Hey everybody well I'm totally in love with jack now. I'm over matthew. But yeah so thanksgiving is coming up I'm so excited for black Friday though I love shopping and I'm going to get the .twilights so Yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh but I'm sad I don't get to see my friends for a week but that's Okay ill get over it.so were starting a dance routine in cheerleading its going to be awesome .that's really. All I have to tell you guys but ill check back in Later. Oh and shortcut to Matthew I love you ur such a good best friend

Cody Simpson - Evenings in London ("Marvin's Room" Reimagined)

i LOVE THIS SONG!!!

Strike 1 chapter 3

Okay so its saturday and yesterday at school my "best friend" got my phone tooken away. I can't have mt parent pick it up because they took it from Toshi and she probably wont get it for me. Im without phone for the weekend and im pissed about it i cant text my text-buddy allie or matthew or anyone now and i might get in trouble if my mom finds out. she better have her parent pick it up on monday or im going to kill her. im so mad im not talking to her i told her specifaclly not to get it taken and look what happens. But whatever. So i went to dance class today and it waas my dance teacheers birthday on thursday so we threw her a suprise birthday party it was fun and she really liked it. We are perfoming next week on sunday and we have the cutest outfits ill try to take pics! But yes i still like Matthew because hes nice and a cutie.Maybe jack was just a phase but i still dont know i guess ill have to sleep on it again!!. So confusing i know.But about highschool,Im thinking about going to NDCL it looks like a good highsachool but im not sure yet ill keep looking im also looking at beoumont but i dont know.I am about to wacth Fred2 night of the living dead..(i think thats the name of it haha) but yeah my class thinks its so stupid(fred) but its kind of funny i remeber wacthing the first one last year it was funy!hilarious!so yeah im excited i even recorded it!!i thought ahead.well im going to wacth Fred2 night of the living dead(i think:))

Here We Go Chapter 2

Okay so this is not how i wanted it to go almost a month since i've wriiten..not cool! But there is a reason and i have been really busy with school and what not. SO i will start written again. No Worries! So an update i still like this boy named Matthew i dont think he has a clue.But i do know he kind of likes another girl but she doesnt like him. Im not to worrried there. But what i really want to talk about is my friend Jack.Jack is a really cool guy and really nice but the thing is i dont think hed ever like me.He did say that he used to like me but with our record its kind of hard to believe. But i do kind of liek him and im kind of confused about him and matthew. They both go to my school and are in my class so i see them both everyday.There also really good friends. The whole situation is confusing and i just dont quite know where im at right now.I think tonight ill sleep it off and then get back to you. I mean it can't be that complicated i just have to weigh them to each other with there good and bad qualities.Im sure ill fiure it out. I also was in a very confusing relationship with my friend/ex boyfriend billy i dont like him more than a friend but he did and he kind of made up a relatyionship with us so i just went with it but its all good it ended were done. over.finished. Finally it felt like the longest week of my life!!! haha yess but thats pretty much it im still pretty cool with Toshi and allie although alex made me pretty darn pissed yesterday but were coll again we made up oh and btw im so excited for saturday Fred2 comes out yahhhh

The Begining Chapter 1

Well in this blog i wont make a bunch of peoms and tell u all these mushy gushy feelings ...well sometimes:) but i will tell you everything straight out because thats how i am . So heres my life a quick overveiw. I have a brother a dog and a cat my brothers name is greg hes 14. I have many friends and im madly in love with one of them his name is matt:) only he has.no idea if he did i doubt hed care because he barely talks to me as a friend. I could only wish he did ........well thts my life as it is plain sad boring. As far as the blog ill try to post everyday ill keep u guys updated and never leave anything major out.btw i luv the show awkward